# ZTE AC2726 (EVDO)
DefaultVendor= 0x19d2
DefaultProduct= 0xfff5
TargetVendor= 0x19d2
TargetProduct= 0xfff1
MessageContent=”5553424312345678c00000008000069f010000000000000000000000000000″

6. Jalankan sudo usb_modeswitch di terminal, lalu jalankan lsusb, hasilnya untuk modem akan terdeteksi sebagai : Bus 006 Device 003: ID 19d2:fff1
7. Jalakan “sudo modprobe usbserial vendor=0x19d2 product=0xfff1″ di terminal
8. Edit file wvdial.conf di /etc/wvdial.conf => gksudo gedit /etc/wvdial.conf, lalu tambah

[Dialer smart]
Init1 = ATZ
Init2 = ATQ0 V1 E1 S0=0 &C1 &D2 +FCLASS=0
Stupid Mode = 1
Modem = /dev/ttyUSB0
Phone = #777
Idle Seconds = 300
Password = smart
Modem Type = USB Modem
Compuserve = 0
Baud = 921600
Auto DNS = 1
Dial Command = ATDT
Ask Password = 0
ISDN = 0
Username = smart

9. Jalankan koneksi dengan perintah sudo wvdial smart, tampilannya kurang lebih seperti ini :

Selamat mencoba.

[Problems/Symptoms/Why-Are-You-Here]
Plymouth splash screen…
* is in low res mode.
* has corrupted graphic
* is decent but can’t switch to virtual terminal or VT is horribly in low res mode
* is decent but the splash screen only appears for a brief 1-2 second ( you are missing the dots moving ), before that you only see a black/blank screen

[Environment]
Use Synaptic or ‘apt-cache policy ‘ or common-sense to find out.
* GRUB >= 1.98-1ubuntu5
* Plymouth >= 0.8.2-2
* NVIDIA cards with nvidia-glx-1*
* A clean without other tweaks to plymouth & grub, please revert them before proceeding. Really, it will not work if you insisted on apply other tweaks. !!! IMPORTANT !!!
* Common-sense and google searching skill
* A bit of risk taking spirit and confidence

[Caveats and Limitations]
I will use the uvesafb to fix all the problems mentioned above but I have to warn you about certain limitations first. They don’t affected me much though (widescreen works on mine). I think problem will come when you want to use solar theme or any complex theme as uvesafb doesn’t have acceleration -> slow. Extract from documentation for uvesafb

uvesafb is a _generic_ driver which supports a wide variety of video cards, but which is ultimately limited by the Video BIOS interface. The most important limitations are:
– Lack of any type of acceleration.
– A strict and limited set of supported video modes. Often the native or most optimal resolution/refresh rate for your setup will not work with uvesafb, simply because the Video BIOS doesn’t support the video mode you want to use. This can be especially painful with widescreen panels, where native video modes don’t have the 4:3 aspect ratio, which is what most BIOS-es are limited to.
– Adjusting the refresh rate is only possible with a VBE 3.0 compliant Video BIOS. Note that many nVidia Video BIOS-es claim to be VBE 3.0 compliant, while they simply ignore any refresh rate settings.

Also, uvesafb replaces vesafb in Ubuntu, in case you are wondering.

[Fix/Workaround]
* uvesafb required v86d package to be installed. Hwinfo package is required for the next step as well.
sudo apt-get install v86d hwinfo

* Find out the supported resolution by using hwinfo.
sudo hwinfo --framebuffer

* Edit /etc/default/grub to make sure we boot with uvesafb framebuffer. For the mode_option parameter change to your native screen resolution you see from running the above comment (if not just set to 1024×768-24 which is safest. Oh, Netbook user – please exercise some common-sense here) Non relevant lines are omitted for clarity.

... GRUB_CMDLINE_LINUX_DEFAULT="quiet splash nomodeset video=uvesafb:mode_option=1366x768-24,mtrr=3,scroll=ywrap" ... GRUB_GFXMODE=1366x768

* Edit /etc/initramfs-tools/modules to include uvesafb by adding the following line.

uvesafb mode_option=1366x768-24 mtrr=3 scroll=ywrap

* Force the use of framebuffer:
echo FRAMEBUFFER=y | sudo tee /etc/initramfs-tools/conf.d/splash

* Update and we are done

sudo update-grub2 sudo update-initramfs -u

* Now reboot and enjoy the high resolution sensation . If it works correctly, you should be able to have moving dots with the splash screen; lesser time of blank screen and much more time with splash screen.

In this post, i want to share about how to change windows 7 logon background. In this case i uses windows 7 ultimate 7600.
Follow this instruction :

1. Find C:\Windows\System32\oobe , after that u will find background.bmp file,
it is default logon background.
2. Open Regedit n find this : Computer\HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\SOFTWARE\
Microsoft\Windows\CurrentVersion\Authentication\LogonUI\Background
3. If there is already an OEMBackground DWORD entry within the Windows 7
Background registry key, set the value of OEMBackground DWORD entry to 1.
If not exists, select new DWORD by a right click and in the displayed context
menu. Set the name to OEMBackground and its value to 1.
4. Create folder name "info" in C:\Windows\System32\oobe and
then create folder name "background" inside info folder.
5. Copy your logon background to C:\Windows\System32\oobe\info\backgrounds.
6. Test logon backgorund using lock feature.

This article is partly about the worst of these myths, but it’s also about how to spot misconceived ideas yourself, and where to find the straight dope about your computer.

1: Everything’s a virus!

By far the most common PC myths concern viruses. Novice computer users are renowned for assuming that anything that goes wrong with their PC must be caused by a virus, and misguided virus warnings are one of the most popular kinds of non-commercial junk e-mail. Many of these warnings clearly originated as a joke (e-mails titled “Pen Pal Greetings!” that warn you never to open an e-mail titled “Pen Pal Greetings!”, for instance…), but many computer users don’t know what their computer can and can’t do and so forward the “warnings” promiscuously.

In recent times, it has become possible for e-mail to be harmful. “Rich media” e-mail clients, especially those made by Microsoft, have far more complex abilities than client software like Eudora, that just tries its best to render whatever you’ve been sent, and doesn’t automatically run anything. By means of legal function calls or unintended weaknesses, overpowered clients like Microsoft Outlook Express can do strange things when they receive particular messages, like for example an HTML e-mail message that’s broken in just the right way.

Far commoner are e-mail pseudo-viruses like good old “Melissa”, which is part Microsoft Word macro virus and part “Trojan”. These pseudo-viruses pretend to be something harmless – an e-mail with an attached text file, a movie file, a list of smutty URLs, something like that, but aren’t. Unlike a true virus, though, they have to be specifically executed before they do their thing. Melissa’s more sophisticated offspring don’t need Word to work – the various Loveletter variants, Serbian-Badman, Life Stages, for instance, are all self-contained.

Most of these viruses require the foolish user to manually execute an file, usually attached to an e-mail, but some of them (like Loveletter) can run if you just have the Preview Pane activated in Outlook Express. The preview helpfully executes the attachment; opening the e-mail normally doesn’t. Fabulous piece of software design there, guys.

Microsoft released a patch on www.officeupdate.com that dealt with this problem, by the way, but only after pretty much everybody running Outlook in their office had had their server jammed solid with virus attachments.

Originally, viruses that propagate via e-mail did it exclusively via Outlook. If you used a different e-mail client, you quarantined the infection to your computer.

More recently, worms and trojans have been coming with their own built-in mail sending software, and the ability to hoover up destination addresses (and fake “From” addresses) from various mail clients, Web browser cache files and other locations. If you’re not running a Microsoft mail client, though, you still have to actually deliberately execute the virus program to kick things off.

On PCs, mail-client-exploiting viruses are likely to remain restricted to Microsoft software, partly because its excessively featureful nature and poor security make it a great target, and partly because it’s so popular. Similar weaknesses have been demonstrated in Corel’s SCRIPT files, and anything with a similarly powerful macro or script language is theoretically susceptible, but the victim populations for viruses that target other software are small enough, and Microsoft software still vulnerable enough, that there’s no good reason for virus writers to bother with other strategies.

Avoiding viruses, in general, is fairly simple. Use virus checker software. Keep it updated. Don’t run mysterious programs sent to you by e-mail. Look carefully at attached files to make sure that they’re not called something like foo.txt.vbs – a Visual BASIC Script file, not a text file. Don’t run macros in unknown documents in programs like Microsoft’s Office suite. And don’t use Microsoft e-mail clients unless there’s some amazingly good reason to do so.

Viruses which are alleged to physically damage hardware are also hoaxes, although some come close. A virus like the still widely-found CIH, for example, can wipe many computers’ BIOS chip. This is a Bad Thing if you’ve got a late model motherboard with a socketed BIOS, since you’ll probably need to swap in a new chip, or at least get the old one re-burned by someone. It’s a Very Bad Thing if your motherboard has the BIOS chip soldered onto it, since then the most economical solution is probably to replace the motherboard.

But this isn’t, strictly speaking, hardware damage; the BIOS chip itself still works, it’s just had rubbish data written to it.

Some really old computers (we’re taking 1980, here) may or may not have had particular hardware oddities that might have allowed malicious software to damage hardware, by for example ordering the monitor to try to paint the whole image in one tiny spot. But anything modern enough to run DOS, let alone Windows, has no such problems.

If you’ve received a questionable virus warning, or if you just want to know how to spot them, the Vmyths.com (formerly Computer Virus Myths) web site is the place to go. For information on what viruses really do exist, start at Virus Bulletin, the best respected independent virus information source. Symantec’s AntiVirus Research Center database, searchable here, is another handy resource.

2: Microwave monitors?

Much has been made by some people – particularly those selling monitor radiation shields – of the supposed health risks of the emanations from computers in general and monitors in particular.

There is evidence that EMR (electromagnetic radiation) – specifically, the radiation from mobile phones – can have effects on living tissue beyond those expected from simple heating. But it most certainly does not follow from this that even high levels of mobile phone-type radiation actually cause any adverse effects at all in humans. Epidemiological evidence doesn’t support such a conclusion, despite sensationalistic reporting of inconclusive studies. Since radiation from computers is both a great deal weaker and at very different frequencies from mobile phone radio waves, there is no reason at all to suppose that your PC is giving you cancer, or making you infertile, or whatever the panic-mongers are alleging this week.

Sitting in a bad chair typing frantically for hours isn’t good for you, and if you spend all of your time in front of a PC instead of getting some exercise, your health most certainly is at risk. But since everybody already knows this and most people ignore it, it doesn’t make the headlines.

3: Leaving it on

Some people leave their computers on as long as possible, on the grounds that components come under the most stress when turned off and on, and so you’re less likely to have failures if you leave the power switch alone. There’s only a grain of truth to this.

Rapidly cycling the power – working the power switch as if you’re being paid by the click – is a bad idea for many electronic devices, including computers and monitors. If you’re talking about ordinary use, however, the only problems you’re likely to encounter stem from differential thermal expansion. Things get bigger as they warm up and smaller when they cool, and different components in a computer expand and contract by different amounts. The resultant mechanical stress can, theoretically at least, break traces on circuit boards and cause similar havoc.

In the real world, thermal problems with personal computers practically never have anything to do with differential expansion, but instead stem from lousy ventilation. Hot components, hard drives in particular, can barbecue themselves into an early grave. But these failures happen pretty seldom, these days, and modern hard drives are very unlikely to suffer motor or solenoid failure on startup. An old drive that’s developed “stiction”, where the drive has a hard time spinning up, should be left running all of the time. But that problem’s never been common and is now close to unknown.

Current “green” PCs with power management features let you have most of the convenience of an always-on PC without the power bills; you can put your monitor, your hard drives, your processor and even the whole computer to sleep, and wake everything back up in a few seconds. From a differential expansion standpoint, this is the same as manually powering off the components in question. But since differential expansion is unlikely to ever do anything bad to your computer, who cares?

4: Screen savers

The screen saver is a modern art form. But what it isn’t, any more, is a way of saving anybody’s screen from anything.

In days of yore, monochrome monitors were quite susceptible to a phenomenon known as “burn-in” or “phosphor burn”. An image shown on the monitor for a long time – a default menu, for instance – would burn in as an incurable ghostly image. Some colour monitors are still susceptible to this, but only if the image has been on the screen for a really, really long time, which is something that just doesn’t happen in most applications.

All you need to protect your screen, of course, is to blank it; again, current PCs with their standby features make it easy to save electricity as well as the screen.

Some screen savers won’t help with burn-in, anyway, because they have graphic elements that never move. If the screen-saver’s static, it’s as bad as a static application screen.

5: Don’t defrag!

You don’t need to defragment your hard drive very often. Modern drive optimisers like Windows 98′s Defrag which position program data according to how often you use it can, indeed, improve performance a bit, but there’s no reason for even a heavily used computer to be defragmented every week, or even every month. Yes, it’ll be faster if you do. But the difference will probably be tiny.

Hard drive performance in toto makes very little difference to system performance, on machines with adequate physical RAM. The difference in performance between unfragmented and moderately fragmented drives is small, and the larger the drive, for a given level of filesystem activity, the less fragmentation it will suffer.

If you’re using Windows NT or 2000 and NTFS-formatted drives, bear in mind that NTFS is famously insensitive to fragmentation – which is just as well, because it’s hard to do anything with NTFS without it fragmenting data. This is why Microsoft claimed for so long that NTFS was immune to fragmentation, and no defrag utility was needed at all!

NTFS performs poorly on old drives with lousy seek speed, but the trade-off is that its performance as fragmentation increases remains quite steady. Once the NTFS Master File Table (MFT) becomes fragmented, you can indeed lose performance, but how much you lose still depends on what files are where and how you use the computer. Look at overall system performance, rather than just disk subsystem performance, and the difference due to fragmentation often fades into the noise.

How much effect fragmentation has on performance depends heavily on what files are fragmented, where the fragments lie, and what filesystem you’re using. Generally speaking, the upshot of all this is that frequent ritualistic defragmentation, in the absence of a significant measured performance loss (not just how your computer “feels” to you), is, obviously, unnecessary.

Fragmentation certainly can severely degrade system performance, especially on Windows machines without enough physical RAM, or which are doing very disk-intensive tasks like serious database work or high data rate video editing. Defrag weekly, though, and you’re probably just going to grow hair on the palms of your hands.

6: Monster swap files

Twiddling Windows’ virtual memory settings (setting a static swap file size, for instance) doesn’t improve Windows 98 or ME’s performance much, if at all, although it can help Windows 95. If you choose to do it, don’t use the goofy rule-of-thumb that your virtual memory should be some set multiple of your physical memory. You need as much memory as all of the programs you want to run at once will consume, and no more. The more physical memory a given system has, the less swap file size it needs, all other things being equal.

This goes for Windows NT and 2000, too; they let you specify swap file sizes on multiple different drives, which is nice to split swap activity over different physical devices for performance purposes. But going bananas on a multi-drive machine and giving yourself a permanent 3500 megabyte memory pool is pointless. Set your minimum total swap to roughly match your average memory pool needs, if you like (Ctrl-Alt-Del, Task Manager, Performance tab; the “Peak” number shows the most memory your system’s used this session), but no tweaking beyond that is needed.

7: Microsoft bit rot

If you’re running Windows 95 or 98, resign yourself to the fact that, over time, it goes rotten. Windows ME’s “save point” automatic backup system may help, or it may not. Sooner or later, any Windows 95-series PC that’s had programs installed and removed or its configuration otherwise changed a fair few times is going to start misbehaving badly enough that zapping the Windows directory and reinstalling, if not formatting the whole hard drive and starting afresh, is called for. Even WinNT and Win2000 systems will go bad eventually, given enough fiddling.

This does not mean you have a virus, or defective hardware, or bad karma. It’s just one of those endearing character traits that make us all love Windows so much.

8: Magnetic mayhem

One of the basic tips in every computers-for-idiots book is to keep your floppy disks and other magnetic media away from magnetic fields, lest your data be wiped.

Magnetic fields can, indeed, eat data, but the usual suspects aren’t generally the problem.

Every ordinary cone-type speaker driver has a large permanent magnet on its back, to give its electromagnetic voice coil something to push against. “Shielded” speakers neutralise the magnetic field with another, opposed magnet glued to the voice coil one, which reduces the driver’s efficiency but does the job. An unshielded speaker’s magnetic field is clearly apparent if you put it too close to your monitor – the image will distort and change colour, and in extreme cases stay that way, despite the monitor’s built in “degaussing” circuit, until someone makes magic passes over the device with a degaussing wand.

But putting a floppy disk on top of an unshielded speaker won’t hurt the data on the disk at all. This is partly because a change in magnetic field strength is helpful in erasing disks when the field is more or less powerful enough to flip the bits, but mainly because the magnet on the back of a speaker may only barely be strong enough to erase a floppy even if you put the disk right on top of the bare driver. A rapidly oscillating magnetic field of greater strength is much more dangerous than the weaker, static one from a simple permanent magnet inside a box.

A old fashioned bell-ringer telephone contains a pulsing electromagnet that moves its bell-clapper, and a disk leant up against it is likely to be a goner in short order. The abovementioned monitor degauss circuit may zap disks left atop the screen pretty well, too, and some printers, especially older dot matrix models, contain quite large and poorly magnetically shielded motors.

Essentially, any electronic device with moving parts may be able to zot your floppies, tapes and Zip disks. It doesn’t have to be able to pick up a paper clip to be dangerous.

DVD-R was created by the DVD Forum (see it at http://www.dvdforum.org/forum.shtml). The most common DVD-R is a write once 4.7gb “general purpose” disc, which is roughly equal to 120-minutes of standard playing lime.

Once recorded, a DVD-R can be played on most home DVD players. (Advertised as compatible with 90%+ of home DVD players.) General purpose DVD-R media is currently the cheapest & most common, and the newest DVD-R drives write at up to 4x. “General-purpose” discs are part of the industry’s copy-protection scheme, which employ CES scrambling to protect movies and music and game discs from being copied. These discs can be burned by “general-purpose” DVD writers such as the Pioneer DVR-A05/A04/103, Panasonic LF-D3 1 1/D321, Toshiba TSDR5002, Apple Superdrive, etc. Such drives cannot copy the playback descrambling codes on DVD movies or game discs, preventing easy duplication of commercial discs.

DVD-RW – pronounced ‘DVD R W” (not “DVD dash R W”)

DVD-RW was created by the DVD Forum (see it at http://www.dvdforum.org/forum.shtml). Generally comes in the single-sided, single layer 4.7gb capacity, which is roughly equal to 120-minutes of standard playing time.

In contrast to the write-once DVD-R types, the DVD-RW is fully re-writable or erasable up to 1,000 times. However, unlike the older DVD-RAM format, these particular erasables are NOT “random access”, meaning that you cannot erase bits and pieces of them. Instead, you have to completely erase the whole disc to reuse it The DVD-RW can be played on many home DVD players, but not as many as the DVD-Rs.

DVD+RW – pronounced ‘DVD plus R W”

This disc type was created by the “DVD+RW Alliance”. A few companies who back the DVD Forum (above) are also active in the DVD+RW Alliance, but the two standards are not compatible.

The first “plus type” DVD recording format is DVD+RW. It, like DVD-RW, is a rewriteable 4.7gb DVD disc. DVD+RW, does have a couple of technical advantages — (1) lossless linking (which enables some editing after recording without a full erasure that DVD-RW requires), (2) a special drag-and-drop file support on the desktop (otherwise known as DVD+MRW). Unfortunately, the DVD+RW disc type does not compare well with DVD-R as far as DVD playback compatibility. However, the actual level of DVD workability on players of DVD+RW is claimed to be about equal to DVD-RW.

DVD+R – pronounced ‘DVD plus R”

This disc type was created by the “DVD+RW Alliance”. A few companies who back the DVD Forum (above) are also active in the DVD+RW Alliance, but the two standards are not compatible.

The newest “plus type” format is DVD+R. It’s write-once disc is aimed at becoming more compatible with home DVD players. However, the fact is that so far it is only about as compatible as DVD-R discs are. Also, DVD+R discs are more expensive in today’s market, and are not burnable by 1st generation “plus-type” burners, which were designed only for the DVD+RW rewriteable discs. Like DVD-R “general purpose” media, DVD+R cannot copy the descrambling codes found on DVD video discs, so commercial discs cannot easily be duplicated. DVD+R drives have recently reached the same maximum recording speeds as DVD-R drives. (4x)
(once you write some data to +R disc, you can also add some more data later,again and again. but you can not erase the data once you writen.)

DVD-RAM

DVD-RAM is used for data backups and storage, and for editing of video or audio content prior to the production of a final distribution DVD. The DVD-RAM disc type is made to act a lot like a hard drive, where the disc can be formatted for Macintosh or Windows type computers. It can handle 100,000 or more erasures, and should last for many years. Of course it is not playable on most DVD players. Type 2.0 DVD-RAM discs can be removed from their cases to enable playback on the few players in which they are compatible. The newer DVD-RAM drives can handle any sized such disc, including 2.6, 5.2, 4.7 or 9.4gb discs.

Some drives support two or more of the above DVD formats. Most add support for CD-R / CD-R W burning as well. But, no currently-available drive has support for all of the D VD / CD formats.

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1. VGA dengan memory dedicated 512M NVidia 210M
2. Memory sudah DDR3 2G
3. Hardisk 320G
4. Ada Blutut

Kekurangan leptop ini juga mayan banyak lho :

1. Agak panas kalo pemakaian agak lama
2. Speaker standart aja
3. Cam standart banget
4. Keyboard sangat biasa

So far selama pemakaian lancar jaya, buat main game juga lancar banget. Game agak baru yang baru di tes main seperti Sim3, Anno II, Street Fighter IV. Untuk aplikasi seperti Adobe PS, Dreamweaver, Visual Studio Pro 2008 lancar banget. Berikut hasil sc-nya dari cpuz dan everest.

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I have try turn off, plug out the batt without succes result. So i ask uncle google for the answer. Then i get the answer, there are i must wipe the blackberry and then re-Install Blackberry OS. With good spirit i try that way. First i Wipe the balckberry using JL_Cmder. Then i Re-install the OS using DM and new OS.
You can find JL_Cmder here and DM or OS in blackberry site or ask uncle Google

Before start, install DM and new OS n try to connect the BB

Wipe Blackberry :
- Make sure DM is not run
- Connect BB to PC
- Run JL_cmder
- Choose menu 1 to see if BB has Connected, when BB not connected usually its appears port error
- If Device status OK then choose menu 4, after that input Y then type blackberry
- Wait 15m or untill the BB screen show error 507. Do not unplug your BB

Reinstall OS :
- Go to C:\Program Files\Common Files\Research In Motion\AppLoader\ and delete the file vendor.xml
- Run C:\Program Files\Common Files\Research In Motion\AppLoader\ Loader.exe
- Follow the step until the dialog show process succes.
- Wait BB restarted automatically.

Now your BB have new OS and Freshhhhh

BB type : Curve 8310
OS New : 8310M_PBr4.5.0_rel304_PL2.7.0.108_A4.5.0.181_Sunrise.exe
DM Ver : 5.0
PC OS : Windows Seven

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Dewi adalah sahabat saya, ia adalah seorang mahasiswi yang berotak cemerlang dan memiliki idealisme yang tinggi. Sejak masuk kampus, sikap dan konsep dirinya sudah jelas: meraih yang terbaik di bidang akademis maupun profesi yang akan digelutinya. ”Why not to be the best?,” begitu ucapan yang kerap kali terdengar dari mulutnya, mengutip ucapan seorang mantan presiden Amerika.

Ketika Kampus, mengirim mahasiswa untuk studi Hukum Internasional di Universiteit Utrecht-Belanda, Dewi termasuk salah satunya.

Setelah menyelesaikan kuliahnya, Dewi mendapat pendamping hidup yang ”selevel”; sama-sama berprestasi, meski berbeda profesi. tak lama berselang lahirlah Bayu, buah cinta mereka, anak pertamanya tersebut lahir ketika Dewi diangkat manjadi staf diplomat, bertepatan dengan suaminya meraih PhD. Maka lengkaplah sudah kebahagiaan mereka.

Ketika Bayu, berusia 6 bulan, kesibukan Dewi semakin menggila. Bak seekor burung garuda, nyaris tiap hari ia terbang dari satu kota ke kota lain, dan dari satu negara ke negara lain. Sebagai seorang sahabat setulusnya saya pernah bertanya padanya, “Tidakkah si Bayu masih terlalu kecil untuk ditinggal-tinggal oleh ibundanya ?” Dengan sigap Dewi menjawab, “Oh, saya sudah mengantisipasi segala sesuatunya dengan sempurna”. “Everything is OK !, Don’t worry Everything is under control kok !” begitulah selalu ucapannya, penuh percaya diri.

Ucapannya itu memang betul-betul ia buktikan. Perawatan anaknya, ditangani secara profesional oleh baby sitter termahal. Dewi tinggal mengontrol jadwal Bayu lewat telepon. Pada akhirnya Bayu tumbuh menjadi anak yang tampak lincah, cerdas mandiri dan mudah mengerti.

Kakek-neneknya selalu memompakan kebanggaan kepada cucu semata wayang itu, tentang betapa hebatnya ibu-bapaknya. Tentang gelar Phd. dan nama besar, tentang naik pesawat terbang, dan uang yang berlimpah. “Contohlah ayah-bundamu Bayu, kalau Bayu besar nanti jadilah seperti Bunda”. Begitu selalu nenek Bayu, berpesan di akhir dongeng menjelang tidurnya.

Ketika Bayu berusia 5 tahun, neneknya menyampaikan kepada Dewi kalau Bayu minta seorang adik untuk bisa menjadi teman bermainnya dirumah apa bila ia merasa kesepian.

Terkejut dengan permintaan tak terduga itu, Dewi dan suaminya kembali meminta pengertian anaknya. Kesibukan mereka belum memungkinkan untuk menghadirkan seorang adik buat Bayu. Lagi-lagi bocah kecil inipun mau ”memahami” orangtuanya.

Dengan Bangga Dewi mengatakan bahwa kamu memang anak hebat, buktinya, kata Dewi, kamu tak lagi merengek minta adik. Bayu, tampaknya mewarisi karakter ibunya yang bukan perengek dan sangat mandiri. Meski kedua orangtuanya kerap pulang larut, ia jarang sekali ngambek. Bahkan, tutur Dewi pada saya , Bayu selalu menyambut kedatangannya dengan penuh ceria. Maka, Dewi sering memanggilnya malaikat kecilku. Sungguh keluarga yang bahagia, pikir saya. Meski kedua orangtuanya super sibuk, namun Bayu tetap tumbuh dengan penuh cinta dari orang tuanya. Diam-diam, saya jadi sangat iri pada keluarga ini.

Suatu hari, menjelang Dewi berangkat ke kantor, entah mengapa Bayu menolak dimandikan oleh baby sitternya. Bayu ingin pagi ini dimandikan oleh Bundanya,” Bunda aku ingin mandi sama bunda…please…please bunda”, pinta Bayu dengan mengiba-iba penuh harap.

Karuan saja Dewi, yang detik demi detik waktunya sangat diperhitungkan merasa gusar dengan permintaan anaknya. Ia dengan tegas menolak permintaan Bayu, sambil tetap gesit berdandan dan mempersiapkan keperluan kantornya. Suaminya pun turut membujuk Bayu agar mau mandi dengan baby sitternya. Lagi-lagi, Bayu dengan penuh pengertian mau menurutinya, meski wajahnya cemberut.

Peristiwa ini terus berulang sampai hampir sepekan. “Bunda, mandikan aku !” Ayo dong bunda mandikan aku sekali ini saja…?” kian lama suara Bayu semakin penuh tekanan. Tapi toh, Dewi dan suaminya berpikir, mungkin itu karena Bayu sedang dalam masa pra-sekolah, jadinya agak lebih minta perhatian. Setelah dibujuk-bujuk, akhirnya Bayu bisa ditinggal juga dan mandi bersama Mbanya.

Sampai suatu sore, Dewi dikejutkan oleh telpon dari sang baby sitter, “Bu, hari ini Bayu panas tinggi dan kejang-kejang. Sekarang sedang di periksa di Ruang Emergency”.

Dewi, ketika diberi tahu soal Bayu, sedang meresmikan kantor barunya di Medan. Setelah tiba di Jakarta, Dewi langsung ngebut ke UGD. Tapi sayang… terlambat sudah…Tuhan sudah punya rencana lain. Bayu, si malaikat kecil, keburu dipanggil pulang oleh Tuhannya.. Terlihat Dewi mengalami shock berat. Setibanya di rumah, satu-satunya keinginan dia adalah untuk memandikan putranya, setelah bebarapa hari lalu Bayu mulai menuntut ia untuk memandikannya, Dewi pernah berjanji pada anaknya untuk suatu saat memandikannya sendiri jika ia tidak sedang ada urusan yang sangat penting.

Dan siang itu, janji Dewi akhirnya terpenuhi juga, meskipun setelah tubuh si kecil terbujur kaku. Ditengah para tetangga yang sedang melayat, terdengar suara Dewi dengan nada yang bergetar berkata “Ini Bunda Nak…., Hari ini Bunda mandikan Bayu ya…sayang….! akhirnya Bunda penuhi juga janji Bunda ya Nak..” . Lalu segera saja satu demi satu orang-orang yang melayat dan berada di dekatnya tersebut berusaha untuk menyingkir dari sampingnya, sambil tak kuasa untuk menahan tangis mereka.

Ketika tanah merah telah mengubur jasad si kecil, para pengiring jenazah masih berdiri mematung di sisi pusara sang Malaikat Kecil. . Berkali-kali Dewi, sahabatku yang tegar itu, berkata kepada rekan-rekan disekitanya, “Inikan sudah takdir, ya kan..!” Sama saja, aku di sebelahnya ataupun di seberang lautan, kalau sudah saatnya di panggil, ya dia pergi juga, iya kan?”. Saya yang saat itu tepat berada di sampingnya diam saja. Seolah-olah Dewi tak merasa berduka dengan kepergian anaknya dan sepertinya ia juga tidak perlu hiburan dari orang lain.

Sementara di sebelah kanannya, Suaminya berdiri mematung seperti tak bernyawa. Wajahnya pucat pasi dengan bibir bergetar tak kuasa menahan air mata yang mulai meleleh membasahi pipinya.

Sambil menatap pusara anaknya, terdengar lagi suara Dewi berujar, “Inilah konsekuensi sebuah pilihan!” lanjut Dewi, tetap mencoba untuk tegar dan kuat.

Angin senja meniupkan aroma bunga kamboja yang menusuk hidung hingga ke tulang sumsum. Tak lama setelah itu tanpa di duga-duga tiba-tiba saja Dewi jatuh berlutut, lalu membantingkan dirinya ke tanah tepat diatas pusara anaknya sambil berteriak-teriak histeris. “Bayu maafkan Bunda ya sayaang..!!, ampuni bundamu ya nak…? serunya berulang-ulang sambil membenturkan kepalanya ketanah, dan segera terdengar tangis yang meledak-ledak dengan penuh berurai air mata membanjiri tanah pusara putra tercintanya yang kini telah pergi untuk selama-lamanya. Sepanjang persahabatan kami, rasanya baru kali ini saya menyaksikan Dewi menangis dengan histeris seperti ini.

Lalu terdengar lagi Dewi berteriak-teriak histeris “Bangunlah Bayu sayaaangku….Bangun Bayu cintaku, ayo bangun nak…..?!?” pintanya berulang-ulang, “Bunda mau mandikan kamu sayang…. Tolong Beri kesempatan Bunda sekali saja Nak…. Sekali ini saja, Bayu.. anakku…?” Dewi merintih mengiba-iba sambil kembali membenturkan kepalanya berkali-kali ke tanah lalu ia peluki dan ciumi pusara anaknya bak orang yang sudah hilang ingatan. Air matanya mengalir semakin deras membanjiri tanah merah yang menaungi jasad Bayu.

Senja semakin senyap, aroma bunga kamboja semakin tercium kuat manusuk hidung membuat seluruh bulu kuduk kami berdiri menyaksikan peristiwa yang menyayat hati ini…tapi apa hendak di kata, nasi sudah menjadi bubur, sesal kemudian tak berguna. Bayu tidak pernah mengetahui bagaimana rasanya dimandikan oleh orang tuanya karena mereka merasa bahwa banyak hal yang jauh lebih penting dari pada hanya sekedar memandikan seorang anak.

Semoga kisah ini bisa menjadi pelajaran berharga bagi kita semua para orang tua yang sering merasa hebat dan penting dengan segala kesibukannya.

From : Mailist Resonansi